time machine.

2011-04-28T00:54:00.000+08:00

filter the old post .

some kinda seems stupid.

intially created a blog to look back what happen in life .

but now, i dont even wish to look back for some events that happen .

2011-04-24T10:43:00.002+08:00

It had been an legendaryy awesome year in CSC !
CSC has become my drug ..
I need the daily/weekly dose of CSC .

Soon, i will be receiving my "kick" and i gonna be back to reality and woke up from my dream. Things might not gonna be the same again. But what's never change is the memories we had made and the friendship and bond we had made.

If i were to re-spell awesomeness, i would spell it- CSC !

Thank you everyone in CSC AY10/11 !
Thanks for the memories !
Thanks for everything ! (:

2011-01-27T20:20:00.002+08:00

When there's up, there will be down ..

For some reason i dont know, i'm feeling down .

2011-01-27T02:48:00.001+08:00

i don't know !

corrosion vs rusting

2011-01-11T22:48:00.003+08:00

Corrosion is the destructive attack of a metal by chemical or electrochemical reaction with its environment.
Rusting applies only to the corrosion of iron or iron-base alloys with formation of corrosion products consisting mainly hydrous ferric oxides. Nonferrous metal such as copper, aluminum and brass therefore, corrode but do not rust.

2011-01-01T17:16:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year to all the AWESOME people i met in my life ! =)

2011-01-01T16:52:00.002+08:00

1/1/11 3.50am plus plus, final destination: pasir ris central
3 teams :
team 1 - lcm, ken, vinc
team 2 - me , dan, zc
team 3 - howard, sy, pang

We split and took to our final destination. my team walk from bugis back till the cathay, and finally we manage to get a cab. We were inside the cab at 4.55am.

team 1 only manage to get a cab at 5am plus. by that time no more surcharge.

pang from the team 3 was knockout, went back home instead of going to central .
sy from the same team as pang was mindf by him. LOL !

In the end, team 2 were to first to reach pasir ris central and the cab fare was $ 22
team 3 second with $ 23 cab fare
and lastly team 2 last with only $17 cab fare .

No more going to town for countdown next year !
Getting a cab was a nusiance.

2010-12-19T02:32:00.002+08:00

Term tests over,
I don't think I'm gonna do well this time round.. It could be my worst term tests ever.. Maybe ?
Screwed up first paper, MNT like t-o-t-a-l-l-y ..
Hais, I just wanna play and enjoy nowww..

Monday... Which projects should i start first ? I have PMT, MNT, GMP(pbl) and life science (individual 3 reports) .. I think this is what define my holiday .. ):
In addition to all this, there is christmas and new year.. this term break is so short to complete all the assignments.. ZzZ.

Don't feel like doing anything ..

2010-12-11T22:08:00.002+08:00

i think i being sucha paranoid..

suddenly got reminded about pmt lab, making of suppositories..
I keep thinking if that viscous liquid of mine does it really flow all the way down the mould.. Because the liquid is so viscous, it might not be able to flow all the way down... && i was so worried cause i pass that solution to another group and afraid they may ended up the same... CRAP !!

Finish my cds paper, and when we were discussing answer, i thought i wrote the wrong answer and was kinda feeling stupid. Hours later, while studying i tried the question again and i realise i did write the right answer...

I think I'm having a serious S-T-M here.. H-E-L-P !

Back to mug !

2010-12-08T00:11:00.002+08:00

well... ?

coincidence or what ? Perhaps you got what you wished for ..

Anyway, just got to focus on my project. Different topic then i shall be independent.

My MNT group, hais. Not i dont want to choose, but i have no one to choose from.
Let's just hope everything goes well.

2010-11-30T01:37:00.001+08:00

I wanna buy a pair shoe, running shoe and slippers !

I need MONEY !

2010-11-27T00:54:00.003+08:00

crappp... I seems to screw up all my tutorial quizzes and lecture quizzes..
had been scoring C and D -.-" OMG !

Am i deproving ??

I CANNOT SLACK ANYMORE!!
I NEED TO FOCUS LIKE SERIOUSLY !
NO MORE PROCRASTINATING !

2010-11-23T00:26:00.002+08:00

went for medical checkup.. skipping all the details... && i got into pes D for the time being due to abnormal ECG -.-"
I had to go down to hospital to do a heart scan.. omgggg... hope is nothing serious..

After the checkup, went to school just to print notes and went to BK to study..

This coming week is another hectic week.. One after another, no wonder our week end so fast. and so does this last semster.. ):

I cannot let this become a habit !

2010-11-21T01:34:00.002+08:00

We should seek for the answers and not assume.. Assumptions may be wrong..
If we do not seek for the answer, we will never find out the truth and things gonna be the same and affecting us over and over again when we think of it.

It would be better if we could clarify..

2010-11-12T23:15:00.002+08:00

life sucks this few days.

We're too dependent on each other.

School work keep piling up..
Lab report, tutorials, pbl, csas , sorting out of notes.
im losing self motivation.

nothing seems to be going smoothly this week, especially with people.
in class, in clique, at home etc -.-"

2010-11-08T23:59:00.000+08:00

Perhaps, im losing myself again ...

Observe, listen and feel

2010-11-08T00:47:00.003+08:00

Observe, listen and feel.

Observe the surrounding and be alert of what's going on be it people, things or a situtation..

Listen to what people have to say, listen from different point of view. Sometimes, while listening, you can learn some lesson, values, learning points from them..

Feel it, by putting yourself in their shoe.. Understand their feeling.. Don't just try one pair of shoe.. Try to put yourself in the shoe of all the people involve, from the two different side and from the people who are not involve..

I don't know what all these will lead to..
But it's something i will try to do..
I might not be able to observe everyone and everything..
I might not be able to listen to everyone...
& I might not be able to put myself in everyone shoe...
But it's the process of learning and understanding people..

But again, Humans are complicated, espicially when it comes to human emotion and human thinking...

I'm contridicting myself. -.-" w-h-a-t-e-v-er..

2010-11-07T02:12:00.000+08:00

Rejected one "outing" yesterday..

I need to stop thinking about it and live life as it has to be.

2010-11-03T21:26:00.003+08:00

Fitness Star Programme ( FSP )
Today the first week, and after the first training, my legg is dammmnn suann and tired...

My work is pilinggg :(

2010-10-24T21:41:00.001+08:00

3.2 begins tomorrow !

Had not been studying for more than one semester ... Hope everything will turn out fine ...

The Last Lap..

2010-10-17T23:17:00.002+08:00

personal goals .. ?

I don't know what i really want yet ..
A chemical engineer ? chemist ? research ? teacher ?

Shall see how thing goes when the time comes..

For now my goal shall be, graduate with a diploma with merit, bronze medalist if possible. && live life in CSC to the fullest as it gonna be the last year .. ):

2010-10-16T13:52:00.002+08:00

I must admit that i lose my focus during my SIP.

I'm not puting 100% concentration on my MP.. My mind keep wandering off ...

2010-10-14T22:41:00.001+08:00

Somehow Somewhat, i feel much better . :)

But still, somehow somewhat i still feel bad. :(

2010-10-11T01:28:00.000+08:00

post to remove the last post . =]

2010-10-09T15:30:00.002+08:00

" Success comes from good judgment. Good judgment comes from experience, and experience more often than not, comes from bad judgment " -Anthony Robbins

Our response to failure determines how helpful the failure can be .

2010-10-06T23:57:00.000+08:00

Doesn't seems to be in the mood.

2010-10-06T01:17:00.002+08:00

Great day with CSC-ians yesterday.

Marina Barrage, CSC Meeting. just awesome.

it must have been peace for you after so long..

2010-10-04T00:56:00.003+08:00

When you know where you are, you can get to where you want to go.
When you are feeling down, you can make the situation turn around and make yourself feel better.

Your mindset determine what you do and how you will act.

Read it from a book. sounds true ..

2010-10-02T00:30:00.002+08:00

Sometimes i wish you could just go away.
Your crap and your theory which you think is right all the time.
Can't stand you in anyway. ARGH!

" go away please "

2010-10-01T20:31:00.001+08:00

I'm not a stalker !

2010-09-12T01:52:00.001+08:00

monopoly deal . =D

2010-09-12T00:09:00.003+08:00

No Laughter,
No Smile,
No Jokes,
No Enjoyment,
No Fun,
No Entertainment .

Sorry, Just simply plain boring-ness .

2010-09-11T01:11:00.000+08:00

in deep shit.
i fallen too deep.

2010-09-03T20:46:00.001+08:00

I'm tired.

2010-08-24T20:24:00.001+08:00

One strongest enemies is themselves.

I failed to overcome myself.
Failure ? perhaps ..

2010-08-23T23:06:00.003+08:00

I want to be there...
But i can't...

I feel that i have the responsibility to be there,
but i really can't make it.

It's not my way of doing things. No choice but to go against it. ARGH!

2010-08-22T15:40:00.001+08:00

Time to be serious and start working.

- MP logbook and Report
- SIP Report
- Magical Autumn

More than enough to keep me busyyyy ..

2010-08-12T20:31:00.003+08:00

Sorry for making things so boring .
I totally don't know how to cheer you up, make you smile and enjoy..

It always seems bored and tired to me. I can't cheer you up. :(

Maybe I shall go away.

" go away please " LOL !

2010-08-08T17:12:00.003+08:00

Day passes fast.. SIP/MP ending soon..
Sometimes, i do hope, it doesn't end so fast..
Things somehow still seems the same, don't think i can make much changes..

Regret taking in-house SIP .. ?
Maybe not.. cause there is awesome CSC ! :D

What about you people ?

Regret ? Hope I'm not the reason.
If I am, sorry ..

2010-07-26T23:07:00.002+08:00

"A Gift of Tomorrow" Recruitment drive tomorrow.

SIP.. Looking forward to everyday, hoping things get better,
but everyday ended up the same or even worst.

Trying to improve, but everyday to no avail.
Running out of solution. Does it even count as a solution in the first place ?

CSC, Jiayous ! 4 days of battle.

2010-07-25T20:26:00.004+08:00

Every week, it seems to pass by faster and faster ...
Have not been updating my log book.. ZzZ

I Love this weekends ..
Friday evening, Education talk and briefing for " A Gift of Tomorrow"
After that, packed the logistic while the organisers continue their discussion and others doing thier own stuffs..
Saturday, Leadership with the heart.. The trainer was very good in presenting himself, the way he speak, the way he interact with us, and his facial expression .. After that went to Ngee Ann Kongsi for the scholarship/bursaries ceremony.. Waste of time .
Next, went to amanda's house to meet the rest before going to shermaine's house.
Had csc gathering over there, it's an AWESOME night ! =D
today, went to vivo city for Hair for Hope event.. It's very nice and the whole set up was well done, better than our roadshow. There are also alot of shavees, its quite touching seeing so many people coming towards to have their head shave.
Hope that Hair for Hope @ TP can be as good as the main event at vivo.

Simply Love CSC =D

i still wonder ..

2010-07-21T21:52:00.001+08:00

i hate this feeling ..
so near, yet so far .. argh !

can i restart everything ?

2010-07-13T01:04:00.001+08:00

I'm tired to start already. It always end, lol.
i want to get lost. but simply can't. or maybe i don't know how.

2010-07-11T00:06:00.003+08:00

Let's summarise last few weeks ...

Had been feeling kinda emo sometimes in the lab.
The feeling makes me don't feel like doing anything, whatever i do, i doing for the sake for doing.
In addition to this, i get poor result for my experiment and screw up here and there.
It's like totally frustrating and irritating.

Last few days was rushing my proposal. Rush Rush Rush, and what Mr Chris Chor did was just tick tick tick. i dont think he even know what im doing.
Although alot of people say is an advantage that he is our LO, but sometimes when you put in effort in doing something, and people just like glance thru. the feeling is like sian ? But anyway, i hope he will read the proposal we submitted.

Sometimes i wonder..
If i'm not in CSC, how will I be now and how are the others ?
If i'm not in this class, how's my result, how about the others ?
If i'm not in the lab, where will i be, will you feel better ?
If i'm not in the DHL, will i still be given the same opportunities ?
If i'm not this course, Will i be someone who just slack everyday, waiting for time to pass ? will i even be in csc ? will i even meet awesome people ?

2010-07-10T00:58:00.004+08:00

Awesome song ! =D

2010-07-07T20:12:00.000+08:00

Saw this story at NUS, EM lab.

This is a story about four people named Everybody, Somebody, Anybody, and Nobody.
There was an important job to be done and Everybody was sure Somebody would do it.
Anybody could have done it, but Nobody did it.
Somebody got angry about that because it was Everybody’s job.
Everybody thought Anybody could do it, but Nobody realized that Everybody wouldn’t do it.
It ended up that Everybody blamed Somebody when Nobody did what Anybody could’ve done

2010-07-05T21:13:00.003+08:00

I'm no longer looking towards everyday going to school.

When I'm with CSC, i feel so relax and enjoyable unlike in the lab.
Mood going up and down, getting poor results is an add on to everything.

I think i no longer have the patience.
Trying my best to accept everyday, moving forward.

Smiling fakely.

A moody post. not emo, just not in the mood.

2010-06-29T01:45:00.002+08:00

My work had accumlated.
MP logbook, SIP logbook, Compiling of results, Proposal, Reading of articles...
Its piling up !!

++ AGM to attend, CSC stuffs to do.

Somehow, i like that feeling, being busy. Maybe because it keep my mind moving, and stop imagining stuffs ?

Till now is still manageable. Soon enough, my MP and SIP log book going to trample me.

I got another blog in tumblr. Search me . =D

2010-06-27T02:35:00.002+08:00

Just realized something,

In every lies, there are flaws.

Take some time and figure it out, and you never know what you can find.

Sometimes, time will betray you. =D

2010-06-16T21:30:00.002+08:00

Just cleared one of my cupboard.
I saw my very first pay slip and i realized i worked for 130 plus hours a month.
Now... is like less than 50 hours a month ?
I miss the figure of my pay .. =(

2010-06-15T22:44:00.003+08:00

Today done my 18 hours of batch 1 sample and 6 hours of batch 2 sample.
It's not fun at all.

18 hours, everything still going quite smoothly.

6 hours ... start to screw up.. at the start, for no reason, i weigh cellulase, it is like totally the wrong steps ?
Bradford assay ...
1st try, Pipette into the wrong column.
2nd try, after all my standards are done, i remembered i forget to vortex them.
3rd try, oh so finally.
Going to AS4 to measure the absorbance, don't know why, but today, Wallace took thilini card and so cant access the lab. Ask the person next door to help open, she gave me some kind of lecture which i don't even wanna know.
Delayed my incubation time.
Finally, i'm inside the lab and manage to get the absorbance.
Reached home, plot the curves, Thank you, both standards R sq 0.96. ZzZ

&&, i don't even know what went wrong..
&& i gonna perform this experiments for don't know how many times.
I need PATIENT !

2010-06-14T00:18:00.002+08:00

Let see..

SIP- everyday 8.30 to 6 plus.
Some of the test just couldn't get consistent results.
Calibration of pipette, do until frustrated.
Nothing much to update on SIP.

CSC- Everyone seems to be doing their part for AGM. Good to see.
Due to SIP, didn't manage to bond much with them during the SLTC.
Hope can get to know them better soon.

Tuesday night - dinner with sec school friends
Wednesday night- Joined the camp
Thursday night- Walked IT fair
Saturday night - Ton !

Although i'm busy with SIP, i spent most of my night enjoying. LOL !

2010-06-07T00:43:00.002+08:00

This few days have been spending my time fully, i think.
had been going out, fishing, swimming, lan, movies, dinners, slacks, meeting..
just simply awesome hanging out with friends.

SIP starting soon..
i think i'm back to the busy life soon enough.

CSC, a whole new committee..
looking forward working together .
AY 10/11 FTW ! =D

At the same time, misses those ex-maincom of AY 09/10.
Hope to see you all soon for events ! =]

2010-05-24T13:15:00.002+08:00

Cleared my 12 hours shifts in CPTC ! =D
What's left now is the final exam and we are done in CPTC !
I think I'm gonna miss CPTC although from the start, I'm like complaining.

Went fishing for 2 nights.
It was fun but the walk was ZzZz.. esp when walking back when you were so tired..
&& i loves hotcakes in the morning, simply awesome !

Struggling in my mind, don't know what to do.
Too much wild imagination, afraid they might come true.

2010-05-14T01:15:00.003+08:00

I don't know what is going on in my mind..
bits and pieces everywhere, seriously don't know how to fix it.

sometimes i think it seems stupid to bother too much.
maybe i should just care less, sit down and wait. silently and patiently..

issit even appreciated or bother ?

solution: blast mp3, clear mind .

2010-05-08T12:00:00.003+08:00

week 3 of CPTC over already...
monday is mid term exam. it's like fast..

i want to know people feeling...

2010-05-01T14:29:00.002+08:00

i got the answer ..
i don't know what to do next .
being nice doesn't seem good .
argh ! i don't know what i want now .

2010-04-28T00:51:00.000+08:00

CPTC ! 6 weeks !
1 week and 2 days down.

somehow, i miss going to school.

2010-04-04T03:05:00.005+08:00

sometimes that sudden boost of confidence just disapper when things really happen.

2010-03-26T01:31:00.000+08:00

what an imagination i have.
getting paranoid. wth !
pointless worries.

2010-03-24T21:42:00.002+08:00

23/3/10
Went to school and play different sports with Purple Rose.
It was AWSOME ! Had a great great time.
Played badminton, table tennis and tried out squash.
After that went to cindy's house downstairs and slack.

Chances are hard to come by. =(

2010-03-24T14:27:00.005+08:00

Nice Song !

Honor Society- Where Are You Now

To my favorite teacher
told me never give up
To my fifth grade crush
Who I thought I really loved
To the guys I've missed and the girls we've kissed
Where are you now

To my ex-best friends
Don't know how we grew apart
To my favorite band
Sing along in my car
To the face I see in my memory
Where are you now

Where are you now?
Cause I'm thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am

To my first girlfriend
I thought for sure was the one
To my last girlfriend
Sorry that I screwed it up
To the ones I loved
Didn't show it enough
Where are you now

Where are you now
Cause I'm thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am

I know we'll never see those days again
And things will never be that way again
But that's just how it goes
People change but I know
I won't forget you

To the ones who came
Who we're there from the start
To the love that left
And took a piece of my heart
To the few who'd swear
I'd never go anywhere
Where are you now?

Where are you now?
Cause I'm thinking of you
You showed me how
How to live like I do
If it wasn't for you
I would never be how I am
If it wasn't for you
I would never be who I am
If it wasn't for you
I'd be nothing
Where are you now?

The lyrics is so true !
People in our life, make us who and what we are.

2010-03-19T20:03:00.001+08:00

Attended Sign Language Workshop yesterday !
It was awesome !
The lesson was well planned and organise.
It totally cool using sign language to communicate but too bad, we cant use it frequently and we will tend to forget.

Wednesday.
Purple Rose outing.
Fun and enjoyable !
Went to kushinbo and eat. Burnt a hole. 42 dollars for a dinner -.-"
After dinner wanted to catch a movie and all the cinema close le.
So went to pool instead. Missed the last train and bus.
Here comes the fun part, trying to figure our way home.
Rushing to different bus stop trying to look for a bus which can bring us nearer to the east side so that the cab fee will be cheaper. But then in the end, still cab home from city.
Spending the day with you, make my whole day.

2010-03-15T15:55:00.001+08:00

Alertness,
Observant
Sensitivity

Issit there ?
To some extent perhaps. =(

2010-03-10T01:59:00.003+08:00

Can't believe i tried out debates today.
Screwed up the first round. Don't even know what to talk.
Second round was quite okay, at least i know what is going on.
At least it is a good experience.

Debates.. never gonna be my cup of tea. never !

Full Metal Alchemist Brotherhood. Nice !

2010-03-06T23:40:00.002+08:00

Today morning, went to AWWA for Boccia volunteering session.
Learnt a new sport ! It was a easy sports and require strength, strategy and concentration.
It is actually a game for the disabled. We lost to them tho =(

After that went to hougang mall and eat and sat in for an interview with a potential main com.
the interview was wow, if im the one being interview, i dont think i can pass.

Went to IMH for ward visiting, the experience was awesome.
It was meaningful and enjoyable.

Almost conqure the whole bedok reservoir yesterday !
An awesome evening yesterday =D

2010-03-06T00:11:00.005+08:00

Another nice video! I like the lyrics =D

Some say it’s not over ‘till it’s over
Guess this is really over now
There’s something I gotta say before I let you go
Listen

When you have a fight with him
Sometimes you cry
And feel sad and blue
I become hopeful
My heart aches secretly
Then just a hint of your smile
Can make feel fine again
To keep you from figuring out how I feel about you
Coz then we would drift apart
I hold my breath, bite my lips
Oh, please leave him and come to me

Baby, please don’t take his hand
Coz you should be my lady
I’ve been waiting for you for so long
Please look at me now

When the music starts
You will vow to spend
The rest of your life with him
How I prayed every night
This day would never come

The wedding dress you’re wearing
It’s not me (next to you)
Oh, the wedding dress you’re wearing, oh, no

You never knew how I felt about you
And I hated you so
Sometimes I wished you would be unhappy

Now I have no more tears left to cry
When I’m by myself I talk to you like you’re here
I’ve felt so restless every night
Maybe I’ve known all along this would happen
I close my eyes and dream an endless dream
Please leave him and come to me

Baby, don’t take his hand when he comes to you
Coz you should be my lady
I’ve been waiting for you for so long
Look at me now

When the music starts
You will vow to spend
The rest of your life with him
How I prayed every night
This day would never come

The wedding dress you’re wearing
It’s not me (next to you)
Oh, the wedding dress you’re wearing, oh, no

Please be happy with him
So that I can forget you
Please forget how miserable I looked
It’s going to be unbearably hard for me
For a long while to come

2010-03-03T02:04:00.003+08:00

holiday here !
bored to death. ZzZz
miss those days in school.
busy like shit, but at least there are something for me to do.
it's less than a week and i cannot take it already. how im i going to survive ?
i want to go out !

running again.
someone tell me what to do !

2010-02-27T19:27:00.002+08:00

exam over !
went seoul garden yesterday after paper..
Full ! after that slack around tampines.

saturday, cycling at ubin !
super fun ! enjoyable day .
but tiring.
good experience tho, first time cycling in ubin.
cycled almost the whole ubin ! =D

sun-burnt.

any good things that happen, a bad thing will also occurs at the same time.
miss out csc outing =(
sorry guys, join you all next time..

2010-02-14T23:56:00.002+08:00

Happy Chinese New Year and Happy Valentines Day !
Went to grandma house today, it had been ages since I went there.
Feel great to see her. But... there's nothing much i could do there.
Watch TV for almost the whole time ?
&& if im not doing anything, i fall asleep very easily.
I actually brought some work to revise there, but i did not even open my bag to look at it.
Too tired and lazy. Also it kinda spoil mood.

Hmm.. had to start my revision quick. Had not been touching any school work since thursday ?
friday was just CSAS acad report submission.

uploaded a video in my previous post. love the song and mv.
maybe next time, i shall upload more video ?
shall see how =D

2010-02-14T23:48:00.002+08:00

First video.
Here is a video on Super Junior- It's You

ENGLISH

It’s you (It’s you) It’s you (It’s you)
For me, it’s only you (It’s you) It’s you

I don’t need anyone else, I just want you
Even if you ask again, I just want you
You might already have a different lover
But there’s nothing I can do
I can’t turn back now Oh
The moment I caught your eye
The moment you drove a nail into my heart
Regretfully, I chose you
Yes, it’s you

Oh, even if anybody, anybody says anything
I doesn’t matter to me
Even if anybody, anybody bad mouths me
I will only look at you
Even if I am born again
It will only ever be you
Tic toc, tic toc
Even is time goes by, oh I
Even if I tell you I love you
One thousand, ten thousand times
Until my heart bursts into flames
And my dry lips wear away
Even if I am born again
It will only ever be you
Tic toc, tic toc
Even is time goes by, oh I

Oh, oh, only for you
Oh, oh, only for you
Oh, oh, only for you
Oh, oh, only for you
Oh, oh, only for you
Oh, oh, only for you
Oh, oh, only for you

I don’t need any words, I just want you
Even if you say it’s too late, I just want you
I know this love is wrong
But I can’t give up, I can’t let go oh, oh
I call you again with my cold lips
Searching, I call out for you hotly
You don’t reply, but I will still wait for you

For me, it’s you, it’s you, I
(Why don’t you know, why don’t you know)
For me, it’s you, it’s you, I

It’s you (It’s you) It’s you (It’s you)
For me, it’s only you (It’s you) It’s you

2010-02-13T23:41:00.002+08:00

chinese new year eve.
a suuuuuuper boring day..
literally rot.
from the time i woke up, been staring at com looking for show to watch.
is really bored at home.
had dinner at around 6pm. its ssuch a long time since we sit down and eat together.
this year is different, didnt went to my uncle house.

yesterday, went to shop for new year clothes. cant really find and maybe not in the mood too.
walked for like 5 hours and only bought one t-shirt. -.-"

cant believe it ! new year eve sooooooooooo bored !
i think im used to a busy life. work, work and more work !
can't stand the feeling of not doing things the whole day.

2010-02-06T23:02:00.002+08:00

csas is totally crazy !!
spent my friday night trying to get the citation done and compile all the bits and pieces together.
left with editing and a few touch up here and there !
hope it will turn up great.

Saturday, weekends at home seriously bored. spent the whole day rotting.
I was suppose to go out with sy and zc to buy new year clothes. Thanks to Zc who cant make it. I stayed at home the whole day. Watch video, facebook and nap. It is so difficult to sit still and study.
Finally at evening, i settle down and started.

Wanted to know, but just can't figure what, where, when, why, who or how.

2010-02-02T23:49:00.003+08:00

Crap !
quizzes and more quizzes.
PSLP lecture quiz and BNu term test is on the same day !!
ALL memory work. i got no idea how to cope with this. && i think this is not the first time.
PSLP on thursday
CSAS due next week toooo !!
OMG !! soooo pack !

Chinese New Year coming, i dont feel the mood. too busy perhaps ?

had been running in my mind for so long, dont know what to do.
stone ? continuing running ?

2010-02-01T21:37:00.003+08:00

woah, another week.
Exam around the corner.
Busy Busy Busy !
loads of memory work !

I hate goodbyes, but I like the way goodbyes are said.

2010-01-24T01:15:00.002+08:00

woah ! spring cleaning at bukit batok !
we helped to pain the whole house and do some clean up here and there.
painting was awesome, although is kinda tired and dirty.
ended around 5 plus then went down to bedok to help the other unit with thier painting.
simply love spring cleaning. different experience each time and very memorable.
after that went down to downtown east to celebrate huishan and chai ling 21st birthday !
ran around 2 chalet, hahas.

Must be Positive! =D

2010-01-22T23:04:00.003+08:00

There goes another week.
Done PCI lecture quiz, CSAS background test, BNu tutorial quiz.
Next week, more to come.

Weekends.. Spring cleaning =D
Hais, both sat and sun, cant study.

there are so many question marks in life.
is life all about removing all the question marks ?

who, why, when, where, what, how ?

2010-01-18T22:31:00.002+08:00

There was once i already gave up and stop thinking about it.
But don't know why and how, i stop giving up and tried again.
&& now, it doesnt seems to make a different.

Whenever i wanted to give up, my mind will go through LOADS of things.
The consequences, what's next, && many many more questions.
Simply mental torture.

hate this process. hate thinking. killing my brain cells. -.-"

2010-01-15T22:10:00.002+08:00

all the fun and enjoyable moments will all become memories.
sometimes, the feeling just sucks.
the time spent together with family and friends will never be the same again.
history will never repeat itself.

if only all the good things can last but it will eventually comes to an end.
too much of a good thing is a bad thing.. AH !

Anyway, this weeks kind of slack. There are things that happen which i cant tell is good or bad.
Next week, here comes all the quizzes .. ZzZz.

What a life ! -.-"

2010-01-13T20:53:00.002+08:00

PIA project finally done. one burden off.
wanted to start revision, but distraction everywhere.

&& time flies supeeeeeeeerrrrrr faaaassssssttttttt...
one week gone just like dat.
wanted to spent more time .
nothing much to post about. byyeeee

2010-01-03T22:53:00.002+08:00

Received a number of calls, but somehow failed to wake up and answer.
Now it ringing just right beside me and i'm awake but still not answering it.
Perhaps i should answer it.

for this term test, maybe i have not put in enough effort.
i believe i can do much much better.
Again, careless! but there are some question which i can solve if more effort is put in.

School start tomorrow, 2010, first day of school . shall start things brand new.
Do things whole heartedly.
Yong Xin Qu Zou !
put in 100% effort in everything i do !

I will catch back what i lost !

2010-01-02T13:15:00.001+08:00

happy new year !
new year, new beginning, new life ?
gonna work harder this year !

hope everything will be fine =D

2009-12-28T22:55:00.002+08:00

Results for PCI, UO2 not very good . i can do better !!!
just wth im i thinking !

Mental torture !

2009-12-26T12:31:00.002+08:00

Went to zoo with purple rose ( Cindy, Wei Ru, Kejian and Joshua ) was awesome !
It will more fun if more came.
Watched Bodyguards and Assasins. A great show about China revolution.
Great day out ! Woohoo ~

Went to guardian with derek to celebrate Christmas. The food was great.
Joyice and Terence came, long time never see them already.
After that, went to whitesand to meet the usual peeps. bought wine up to daniel house.
play texas poker, $2 buy in, won $3 at the end of the day =D yay !
The food there was nice. && the drink best !
Thanks Daniel's Mum =D

BEST CHRISTMAS !

People always say "put yourself in other people shoes"
But sometimes i just don't know what and how they feel about certain things.
If only if they say it out. If not, it will all be an assumption.

2009-12-20T12:28:00.002+08:00

Saturday .
Ren Ci flag day. Yes, is Ren ci .
kinda fun and different experience doing with CSC and being the coordinator.
although my tin is not that filled, but the process is fun.
After that went to asbel house for christmas party.
The food there was awesome. But i think we bought too much food there.
Thank Abel for inviting us and Soon kiat for all the games. =D
A tiring but enjoyable day =D

running in my mind...

2009-12-18T23:22:00.002+08:00

this 2 weeks of holiday are more like projects week. -.-"

Thinking back..
feel kinda wasted, my term test T.T
gonna do badly.

Uo2 presentation kind of screwed ?

Super sian... No mood to do any research !

zero joy .

2009-12-12T20:35:00.002+08:00

term test over .. I think im going to screw up 2 of my paper ..
dammit ..
got back my laptop . like ohsofinally.
i need it to do my presentation..
being impatient, cab down to alexandra technopark today to pick up my laptop.
if not, it will send to be on tuesday.

Holiday . . .
projects projects and projects.

2009-12-06T14:56:00.000+08:00

TERM TEST !

2009-12-01T01:03:00.002+08:00

Tired of leading sometimes ..

Totally lost and dont know what to do..

Don't know what to do if were to meet up for a project meeting .

What can we do during project meeting when everyone done their part. Discuss ? Improvement ? Teach ?

From this 2 semester, i had worked with different people and there are people who ..

- Just keep quite all the way, zero opinion, full time follower.

- Just don't know what's going on.

- Don't even bother to come for meeting

- Right click copy, alt tab, right click paste.

- Have zero initiatives. No instruction = No work .

- Done their part, wash their hands.

I hate conflicts in a group.

I rather do everything myself than to have a conflict.

Handling conflict ? I'm clueless.

Somehow, i found myself failed to be a leader .

Cant cope with such problem, poor leadership ..

2009-11-30T18:52:00.002+08:00

KO-ed again .. PCI so dead ..

Got a C . although is expected .

Things getting worse perhaps ?

Confused with input, output, Kc, Step , Ramp ..

Flu at last lecture .. Not absorbing and digesting anything .

Plus the result i got .. Not a good day .

Hate it.

2009-11-29T13:13:00.003+08:00

A sudden and random chalet pop out on Friday .

It was so unexpected and only a few turn up. Kenneth, Chau Ming, Siyong, Zhi Chen and Joel .

Stayed overnight.

Thanks to Daniel and his mum =D

Had a great day but my homework was sacrifice .

Before the chalet, went to watch Ninja Assassin with Yaoli, Melvin, Leonard and Johnson.

Gore movie.. Storyline isn't that bad.

Saturday.. never really study much, slept at 11pm . super tired . . .

I have tons of things to do ...

PSLP lecture Quiz

PSLP PBL 2

UO2 presentation

UO2 and PCI tutorial quiz

never ending quiz and project since 3rd week ?

Term Test up in less than 1 week ...

Argh !!

Failed to control temptation.

Cons more than pros.

The right choice wasn't made.

2009-11-26T22:53:00.002+08:00

I cant believe it !

I got B for my UO2 quiz ! Dammit .. What's going on ??

Actually, my concept was correct but when put in words.. I express it wrongly ._.

Need to score quite high to cover up my B ..

Mark Tan give us another "brain wash" session, but not really brain washing..

What he said kinda make sense ..

Finally treated Leonard his Swensen treat.

going broke .. hope things get better ..

Things to be done in this long weekends ...

UO2 presentation

PSLP PBL 2

&&&&

REVISION !!

A Wake Up Call ..

Answering it, not letting it to be one missed call .

2009-11-25T23:35:00.002+08:00

Some incident occurs and it set me thinking ..

If i were to make just one wrong move, i'm so dead. What i have been working so hard will be gone in just that second. Not every time, there is a second chance.

I did the Pre-SIP survey already and decided to do in house. Let's hope it turn up good ?

Realized that its less than 2 weeks to term test .

Had to start studying. memorize, practices, understanding ..

quizzes back tomorrow ~

damned !

2009-11-23T20:40:00.002+08:00

drift off during lecture ~

tired !

making the right choice at the right time .

2009-11-22T12:46:00.002+08:00

Rushed 2 lab report on friday. and finally is done.

I was doing uo project and searching for " chemical engineering ". Although it gives a wide job prospect, i don't think is something that i want in the future. It begins with an interest and slowly it become something that i must score well for. Now i have to make a choice, OSIP, local companies or in house. Had been thinking of in house, since i already started and is kinda secure my MP and also the traveling time is shorter. However, the disadvantage is it going to be super bored for the next 4 months. I have to get super mentally prepare for that.

Watched 2012, earth changing polarity. Disaster strike. Extinction of human race ? maybe ? maybe not ?

Humans are all selfish and greedy in a way or another. If the earth really get destroyed, its all our own doing.

It just the matter of time.

csas 3 . I'm so dead .

My english CMI T.T

2009-11-19T21:12:00.002+08:00

yay ! down 3 quizzes.. PCI, UO2, PIA .. BUT ..

PCI - last question ... didn't complete partial fraction .. hais.

PIA - zero time management.. cant finish.. hais.

UO2- theory.. hais.

all 3 tested on concept .. didnt really get all right ..

learnt my mistake..

get the concept well ..

next .. PIA report, PIA project, PSLP PBL, UO2 project.

2009-11-13T23:45:00.003+08:00

cleared CSAS3 research test ..

New PBL came in .
New CSAS 3 quiz coming in 2 weeks time.

CCN day over .. earn about $10++.. but at least, the process is fun and great .

got no idea of how am i going to face the week ahead ..
tons of things to complete.
quizes and submission of report..
one after another...

2009-11-11T22:26:00.002+08:00

In class sometimes, serious communication breakdown.
totally cant communicate, message cant brought across.
"cant be bother" attitude.. from both party.
yea.. sometimes really cant be bother .

Things to be done..

PGC report
CSAS 3 Quiz
UO 2 Project
PIA Lab report
PIA Quiz
PIA Project
PCI Lab
PCI Quiz

2009-11-10T22:49:00.002+08:00

Things are not going A, B, C ... or X, Y, Z.
Its going F, U, P.
Maybe is just because I'm not in a good mood or maybe i cannot take it anymore.
Spoonfeed ? Continue to say never mind ? Continue to say i help you ?
Maybe should have a fullstop to this before start a new one begin ?

Am I putting too much things on myself and having high expectation ?
Tolerance level going low. Sooner or later, I think I'm going to burst out.

Everytime when i have things plan nicely in my head, somehow it will get screw up.
I have to find ways to screw it back and no matter what, i need to do so. If not my life going upside down, inside out.

2009-11-09T00:31:00.002+08:00

Saturday 7/11/09
went spring cleaning. kinda last minutes and cant get enough manpower, so only 6 people.
after that went with kh and jesslyn to orchard to meet soonkiat, abel, huishan and ernest.
After awhile, head back to city hall to meet zhi chen, siyong, derek, foongmei, chau ming, elesia, logen, jingde and daniel..
went to jack's place and eat .. it was zhi chen birthday..
he ate at 36 dollar meal, first time w/o him paying .
pang joined during dinner.. and after dinner.. howard and vincent came.
went zc house after that to drink, slack and chat.
i didnt really drink much ..
reach home about 1 am.

hope it will be a memorable 18th birthday for zc !

my situation now is like water filled to the brim ..
if im not careful, the water may just overflow ..
i have to maintain it stagnant.
water keep flowing in from different direction and i had to clear the water at the same rate or even faster .
can i catch up with the rate ... ??